I'm at the brink Don't laugh at the winks I've masked Who'll save you when you fall? Who died and made you king of it all? Who wins this war? You lack the conviction to look at me straight and say yes The wind is so warm on the back of my neck Some fictions we took to mean fate believe me I know Don't be uncouth be a man Don't lie with your eyes Look at me as you say this don't look at your phone For God's sake I'm done with your dreams they won't last You'll look back at the woman fifty year old you will proud to have known After summers of fasting I feel hunger at last For the person fifteen year old me would be proud to have known Cos these Plates they smash like waves Place your smile in mine The wine stains hide the tears Why stay? That breathing you hear don't mistake it for sighs They're just battle cries dear These lines aren't wrinkles dear heart They're just dollops of paint on a new work of art As I walk away I know I've been through the wars That creaking you hear in my bones is not pain it's applause We were gods With you I could summon the gods and the stars We were kids 'Come at me you blaggards!' By god love believe me I wanted to play too I did You dragged us both into the darkness that grows Our devils broke rank Out of the depth came an army I won't leave without a fight I won't let you turn our last night into this This isn't a break up dear heart it's a season finale It's not pain it's applause At the end of all things I'm not going to scream beat my chest at the wind I'm doing fine