Most of our thoughts and experiences are verbal. Expressed in language investigated by projected through language. It is language that differentiates me from my environment. Without it I coincide with experience the distinction inside-outside disappears cease to be a subject whatever happens without meaning. Because meaning This doesn’t deny reality goes beyond denies subjective perception pre-conceptual reality. All human conceptual therefore linguistic nature. The nature subjectivity identity rooted networks words mutually supportive but there no absolute beginning or ending chain. Like net interconnected balloons float on water none them touches bottom. In search pre-conceptual non-symbolic experience reality have let go Nothing makes reference can part because purely linguistic. am not there becomes fullness sensorial intensity movement direction purpose. fact quest for itself fallacy: question melts away an annihilating bath immediate experience. On spiritual path this has radical implication: nothing verbal “real”. Every thought meaning insight conclusion self-understanding: all empty upon arising. They virtual mind sustains feel safe control. balloons they air surrounded thin layer conceptual magic.