but just because things didn't work out it doesn't mean that we weren't meant to be. i know that we could've trusted each other. it really hurts that we didn't try. i hope one day we could have a stupid conversation again. i always think about what you're up to every day what you're doing at the exact time that i'm doing it. i always imagine that you could be thinking about me too and we'd be thinking of each other at the same time. do you still think about me? i know you don't love me anymore but i don't think it matters. i know you make fun of how i look with your friends. i know you tell everyone that i hurt you. you hurt me too. and despite that i still love you just as much as before. in another universe we're living in the cottage home you wanted working at the cafe raising our kids. we were supposed to go to ireland together. i'm so sorry that it didn't work out. i'd drive miles and miles to see you smile again but if you saw me there you would frown. do you hate me any less now? do you feel it too? i love you.