There is a haze here of imposter system that surprises me it stands here white this box--that after reading Sam's and Al's stories I think might not have story with the power to belong. But there pattern see in myself others especially afab queer female people know: our don't feel real us. I've known some survivors abuse: we abuse was real bad. Sometimes heart pain count only happens because marginalization sometimes enough count. So pledge now be space at length counting it.