It’s something of a blissful dread to know that you can do your best in this moment yet something horrible or amazing can happen in the future. How far in the future no one knows it’s part of that dread. But it’s up to the person to decide what to think about it- be content with whatever is happening in the moment or be anxious and fearful of what is to come. Even now I was dreading starting this essay but I had to get it in my head to not put off tomorrow what can be started today. I got a whole vibe set up in here on my bed headphones on music playing at 1 AM typing up my life story. It’s blissful. And when life is blissful there is nothing to dread.