When being loved I give it up. Relinquish choice relinquish my body. Breathing lungs and burning eyes- let all go. Feel organs move shift. Intestines twisting brain shrunk . Put myself somewhere far away as feel his fingers replace blood platelets disease healthy. Part lips. Eyes always open. Love me stuff pose me. Want me under a spotlight. beautiful to strangers. I’ve love. still do Render stock complacent. Empty of fill up with someone else. takes apart joint by joint. said yes at the time. Someone who refuses know intimately manoeuvres Now am good. willing. lying in bed next your slow breathing body digging up in through myself where you have been feeling nothing but cotton.